Baby Madison

There is sorrow in our home tonight.  I am not sure were to begin. I think I just need to get it all out of my head. I have such great concern for my daughter and her unborn babies.  Well, I should say baby. It all started back in July when she learned that she was pregnant with twins.   We were so excited and couldn't wait for the ultra sound.  We talked about her having girls and how exciting it was going to be having two babies.

The day of the ultra sound came and I waited patiently by the phone for her call. Then Jessica called, “Mom, they couldn't find the heart beat in baby b”.  We talked about all the possibilities it could be but really felt that it was so early and that the other baby might have been in the way. She was scheduled for another ultrasound and still not heart beat but baby b was growing. She had the same legs and Arms as baby A so we were sure it was just a fluke. 

Two months ago they told us the baby B had died and her body would just absorb the unborn fetus. Then she was told that the baby was still growing and we thought God works in mysterious ways. Finally at 20 weeks they had a specialist look at the ultra sound and they found a hear beat.  This was the first time we had heard such good news. 

My daughter was scheduled to have another ultra sound and see yet another specialist.  They again say there is no heart beat and the twin will not make it if she is born.   They contacted a doctor that specializes in surgical procedures while child is still in the womb to see if anything could be done.  Then my daughter’s kidneys shut down and she was rushed by ambulance to Seattle.  Again they do ultrasound, after ultrasound trying to figure out what is going on.

My daughter had kidney stones and once they were under control 6 days later she left the hospital with yet another appointment to see yet a different specialist.  They informed her that the twins were a rare case called acardiac twin.  This was devastating news for her and our family. So last Friday, she again goes to Seattle who specializes in complications during pregnancy to only be told that she will indeed have to have surgery to terminate Twin B. They set the surgery for Monday.  Well, yesterday she was told that because she was so far along they would be better to wait out this night mare. The New Specialty doctor was horrified that they called her so late. She informed my daughter they could have fixed this month ago and never put the healthy baby at risk.

As a mother and a grandmother my heart is so hurt.  I wish I could take my daughters pain again and the grief that she feels.  My baby granddaughter only has less than a 50% chance of survival.  We can only pray that her little heart will not be affected by pumping blood to her deformed sister whom she will never know.  It’s just a sad day in our house old.   I will pray from my daugher Jessican and my unborn granddaughter Madison