Scared

I could hear a ringing and couldn't understand why the church bell sounded like the phone. It wasn't making any since to me. I was ready to go to church to pray and suddenly I am in bed with my eyes open and hears listing for the sound; that familiar ring of the phone.

 The sound of the telephone woke me out of deep sleep.  I looked at the bedside clock to see that it was only 10:30 p.m. My first thought was who in the world is calling. There must be a problem with one of my children. Who is it?  I answer the phone to my daughter’s voice and she just needed to talk. 

I was so relieved that it wasn't more. She is scared and living on the coast away from her family. I try to comfort her racing thoughts and reminding her not to barrow more worry.  Tomorrow she will be at 27 weeks pregnant and we are hoping to for 32 so we pray a lot.  Her next doctor appointment is Tuesday for another stress test on the live baby.  I tell her I wish I could make it all go away and make things better. I remind her that while she feels we are far, far away her father and I will be there for the birth of our granddaughter.

She asked me, “Mom, will the fear ever go away? Will it all be better once she is born?” I told her we never stop worrying, but things will get better.  We chatted about her when she was a baby and how cute she was and how she grew like a little weed.  We prayed and then said our goodbyes.

It was hours before I could sleep my heart hurts so much for her and her unborn baby. I prayed to heavenly father for his guidance and then left it in his hands. As a parent we never stop worrying, the key is to remember we are not alone.