I haven’t been keeping up lately with my posts on my Blog. I
try to write and find my mind wondering.
I think of my daughter and her future. The loss of my grandchild and the
what if’s in life. My father used to
say if is a small word, but it makes people ponder a lot. “If is the biggest little word I know”. That
is what my father used to tell me. I
asked him what he meant. He told me, if I would have gone to college I wouldn’t
be working in the woods. If I would have made better financial choices as a
young man I would have saved money. If I would have known my body would have
turned against me, I would have made better choices.
As I look back I wonder what life would have been like if I
would have done things differently. I
started the, what if thing and decided that I am happy for the way things are
and I know I got hear from the choices I made. What if I hadn’t gone to college?
I would still be working at the local five and dime. Life is so short for the, what if thing. I loved my father and I wonder if he took a
positive approach to life he would have live longer. See, that I did the, what if thing.
I have been trying to avoid the, what if, scenario. When things are stressful and you are down, what
if, sneaks up on you and will suck what little energy you have and make things more
difficult. I loved
my father and I totally understand what he was saying. I am just having a difficult time getting
back into life after a wrongful death. I
can set and wonder what if. Positive or
negative the pain and loss of a grandchild is terrible. Watching my daughter
and her husband deal is painful. The
word “IF” (noun) can be used as a
possibility, condition, or stipulation.
That is why “if” is such a large idea.
Well done! I know the what if feeling. I wanted to be a dancer, but epilepsy manifested itself when I was 19. I sometimes wonder how my life would have been different. We do need to be positive and believe that we are exactly where we are supposed to be. I have heard that life is like a school so learn from every situation.
ReplyDeleteI have those "what if" moments too. I think what if I have actually tried in high school, what if I had gone to college right after high school, what if I had waited to have my children til later in life, what if, what if... I think we could spend a lot of time doing this. I just have to remind myself that all we can do is our best and look toward the future, keeping positive thoughts.
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